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nihilistsarego @ 2007-03-14T21:11:00

2007-03-14T21:18:49Z

You say you're down on your luck
hey baby, its a long, long way up
hold back now, hold back your fears
you say you're really down and out
and you feel like there's no way out now
let go now let go of your tears some more

How many times have you asked yourself
is this the hand of fate that I've been dealt?
you're so disillusioned this can't be real
and you can't stand now the way you feel

I don't care about what they say
I won't live or die that way
tired of figuring out things on my own
angel's wings wont you carry me home

[Chorus:]
And when you're down on your luck
hey baby, its a long, long way up
hold back now, hold back your fears
and when you're really down and out
and you feel like there's no way out now
let go now let go of your tears some more

[Repeat Chorus]

I triumphed in the face of adversity
and I became the man I never thought I'd be
and now my biggest challenge, a thing called love
I guess I'm not as tough as I thought I was

I don't care about what they say
I'm gonna marry you some day
go ahead and wake up, its a brand new day
Angel's wings gonna carry you away
Angel's wings are going to carry me away
Angel's wings are going to carry us away

short update

2006-01-16T04:45:13Z

i found out last week, ive been nominated for employee of the year. i feel uncomfortable about it but truth be told, way down deep inside, i know that i fucking deserve it. i really dont like to boast but to be honest about it, i genuinly do work really fucking hard on a consistant (+2 years now) level. so i am happy about that. (hell yeah, i did that shit)

ive been trying my best to try to think more positivly in my daily life and for the last few weeks, ive been doing a pretty good job. instead of getting pissed off about something at work and being in a funk all day long about it, now i only allow myself a healthy amount of complaining. i vent out my fusteration for 5 minutes and then i just let it go and try to think really positive for the rest of my day. i saw a therapist for the first time in a few years last thursday. im happy that ive got that going now because ive really needed it for a long time. i start school on the 24th! im kinda scared because this is the first class that ive taken since i dropped outta NIU. im nervous about it, but i think that it will work out for me. ive been trying to do lots of changes in my life recently...and im trying to do it all at once, (Hell Yeah, I'm awesome)

pos-i-tive +++ < /nerd>

i bought a 60 gig ipod the other day. its pretty fucking cool. now i can listen to my music all the time. too bad that i'm ripping my entire cd collection for the THIRD time. this time im happy with the sound quality. 128kbps=suck 192kbps=satisfaction

i hopped on the bandwagon...mines black. but really though, how long was a music nerd like me gonna go until i got one?

Britt went back to school today. ive been doing my best all day today to look at it in a positive light. so far so good. i know im gonna feel bummed out sooner or later but ive kept that at bay so far. She also got an ipod but shes pissed off right now because her computer is too fucked up right now to rip cds. a reformatted harddrive and a fresh install of xp will fix all that. needless to say, shes not happy about it.

ok back to the cd ripping...

nihilistsarego @ 2004-07-06T08:52:00

2004-07-06T14:13:48Z

Hello LJ surfer, go fuck yourself.

goddamnit. lcb canceled their tour.

my back hurts and im pissed off and i am missing people.
carface, dave, will, atom, mitch, brendan, britt, ...
OH SHIT, its 9:12 am and i havent even gotten ready for work. fuck. off to work.
coffee. coffee.

nihilistsarego @ 2004-06-28T21:40:00

2004-06-29T02:53:58Z

oh what a day...

sigh..

lots of rest.

2004-06-28T01:14:51Z

had a good weekend.
got to see britt alot.
sorry for not returning your call on friday carface. the phone said that "number cannot be dialed, please check your manual" thing again. sorry bout that hun. i couldnt get the $$$ for gas anyways. :(
just had a nice slow quiet weekend for once.
talked to will over the computer briefly, hes gone to flordia with J for the week. hes gonna grab J's tit in my name. i did the same.
stressed out as hell right now.
gonna go meet up with my girl now.
bye bye.

678704 NINER ALPHA / 6, THAT is your employee number. It WILL NOT be repeated.

2004-06-24T09:00:11Z

yes oh yes friends, dystopia rules.

bored

2004-06-22T04:55:40Z

originality is overrated.
cant think of anything fun to write.
this wasnt fun to write.

LIKES-
_getting new music
_when my room and my car is clean
_tracing the curves of her naked body with my fingertip when we just lay on the floor
_a full gas tank
_clean pants
_king cobra
_la bomba
_the internet
_good pictures
_busting my ass at work
_my health
_driving around in the summer time with my arm hanging out of the window
_masturbation
_my apartment
_listening to music too loud
_stuff
_www.dirty-proverbs.com
_kaiju big battel
_my pills
_krmping
_camel cash
_coffee n cigarettes
_beer n cigarettes
_new vinyl
_talk radio
_getting drunk with my boys
_random thoughts
_bragging about how great my girl is

DISLIKES-
_$
_buying cigarettes
_gas prices
_that one bitch at work
_trying to find a pen at work
_moving
_having no time to call and talk to my loved ones
_the internet
_not being able to wait for shows because i have no patience
_shame, what litte of it that i have
_the roommate
_going deaf because of aforementioned loud music
_WISCONSIN
_marb lights
_insert something here
_the president
_doing my goddamn laundry
_the hole in my shoe
_finding out that mike blanks & the sdabs canceled
_the lost 999/mad parade show
_THE SPINS
_fucking bills and rent
_my car smelling bad and me being too lazy to get a little tree air freshener thing
_not being able to make up my mind on how i want my tattoo
_dumb motherfuckers @ work
_insert something here

in other news, britt got 4 zoobies pulled today and shes not too happy with it. i got her some goodies during my lunch break and i got to see her briefly. <3

Brats and Straps

2004-05-17T05:50:06Z

THE BRATS ARE COMING! THE STRAP-ONZ ARE COMING!

September 18th Chicago,IL. LOWER CLASS BRATS @ Bottom Lounge w/ Hat Trickers
July 26th Chicago, IL THE VIRUS @ Bottom Lounge w/ Clit 45 and Complete Control

La Bomba v3.0

2004-05-17T05:25:59Z

i think i need to buy a new car. la bomba has been causing me lots of headaches and crap so im thinking it might be time for a car that i can count on to crank over in the morning. im thinking about a '97 toyota corolla. La Bomba v2.0 was a corolla and i really liked that car. $5000 is alota money, but then again, thats what car loans are for. ill be lucky if stress doesnt give me an ulcer.

oh yeah and..

2004-05-14T04:59:52Z

im moving away.

well, away as in 10 miles away. im gonna be living in waukegan now. it should be cool. new apartment, bigger, pool, cheaper, balcony, porch, same 45-year-old-skitzophrenic-once-tried-for-homicide-creep roomate. the trade off is that its even more ghetto than my apartment now. 22's, subs, and rims all over the place. who knows? i guess everything is brandnew in the apartment(carpet, cabinets, fridge, stove all new.) well, actually its not that bad for slum ghetto ass gang-ridden wauktown.

in other news, the weather is becoming uncomfortably warm.

dreamin of a rock'n'roll weekend

2004-05-13T05:18:33Z

ok, where do i start?? this past weekend was phenominal, on the real.
Friday me and Britt went to her prom and we were seriously the hottest couple there, im not even kidding. im gonna post some pictures when we can find them. We danced all night long to Outkast, the Darkness, Lil' Jon and the eastside boys, etc... went back to Britts house and spooned all night until it was time for ethan to drive home. the next day we went to navy pier and packed a picnic basket so we could krmp krmp a little later on. ....damn trolley...
WARNING lj-cut has lots of pictures, sorry 56k'rs

^This is Britt. She makes me a happy boy.^

^heartheartheartheartheartheartheart^

^::cues up Darkness song::^

^We were kissing at this light and the car behind us honked at us because they knew we were cooler than them^

^i had an important question to ask her. she said yes. meet my girlfriend^

^wheres by bowler hat when i need it?^

^WSO: FSU Division^

^"...and i think to myself, what a wonderful world"^

^Save the best for last.^

XOXOXOX
Read Britts Entry
More Pictures
Let the jealousy begin...

94 hours

2004-05-06T05:32:04Z

HOLY FUCK THIS IS GOOD. As I Lay Dying owns you.

her. part II

2004-05-03T06:42:49Z

this picture speaks for me.

nihilistsarego @ 2004-04-29T00:26:00

2004-04-29T05:48:30Z

ethan....tired....must.......sleeeep.
had a long hard day today. normally today would be my friday, no more work for ethan until sunday buttt i gotta go into work tommorow at 0900-0945 and 1415-1500 for the monthly employee meeting cos i gotta introduce myself as the OSHA representative for my building. kinda nervous about it, but oh well...im just gonna go up there and bang it out quickly. thats all alright because I have lunch DATE with BRITT! yay for me! im excited for that so the speech should be painless. im just gonna focus on that and the rest of the day will go just fine.

life is good.

2004-04-28T04:45:12Z

Life is strange, but very very good indeed. i know i was gonna write about my awesome weekend (2 down, 50 to go) but i dont think i am going to because it was really good and thats all you need know.. because this weekend belonged to me and britt. :)

cheap smile

I LOVE to smell Britt hair

me and kristy a couple weeks ago

"Hey! Hey! Hey!"

"damn it feels good to be a gangsta"

BRITT! :)

i look like a chump. oh well i have no shame. :)

political satire.

2004-04-25T05:28:05Z

I was inspired by Daves political post, so im gonna follow suit and post one of my own.

1. Homosexuality is not natural, much like eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control.

2. Heterosexual marriages are valid becasue they produce children. Infertile couples and old people can't legally get married because the world needs more children.

3. Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage is allowed, since Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.

5. Heterosexual marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are property, blacks can't marry whites, and divorce is illegal.

6. Gay marriage should be decided by people, not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of the minorities.

7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire counrty. That's why we have only one religion in America.

8. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

10. Children can never suceed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why single parents are forbidden to raise children.

11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven't adapted to things like cars or longer lifespans.

12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because a "separate but equal" institution is always constitutional. Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages for gays and lesbians will.
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p.s. I had a wonderful weekend this week that is fully worthy of a posted entry, but im so tired right now that my brain is sore so ill do it tommorow night when i get home from work. new pictures are on the way.

nihilistsarego @ 2004-04-21T21:02:00

2004-04-22T02:19:30Z

the fireside
TUE. MAY 25 - 6PM
THE BRIEFS
REAL MCKENZIES
THE DIALS
THE RETURNABLES

bottom lounge
SUN. MAY 16 - 8PM - 18+
999
MAD PARADE

nihilistsarego @ 2004-04-21T01:16:00

2004-04-21T06:25:48Z

heh. i cleaned my room today and found a wild dust bunny ranch under my bed. ooooo! dust bunnies!

yes YES

2004-04-20T05:41:39Z

Oh hot dog! I had the most superior weekend, even better than your weekend!
Thursday- I swung by and picked Britt up at school and went on an excellant lunch date (yay!). Me and Britt went to starbucks and talked non-stop about this and that. I had a really GOOD time! With exception of Carlene, Britt is one of the few people that I can talk with for hours and hours and not realize it. Me and Britt are getting along so well and I FUCKING LOVE IT! you have no idea, Britt makes me laugh, joke, smile and I dont feel like I have to be a certain way around her. She truely makes me feel comfortable. I have a good feeling about her. I dropped Britt off at school and drove home all giddy and happy and shit, I wish someone could of seen me. he he he.
Later that night i drove out to Dekalb so I could spend the weekend with some of my 'inner circle'. Almost everyone was there! Atom, Mitch, Carlene, Mike, Will, and I finally got to meet Gillian. It was good times! At this point im thinking that shit cant get any better, but it does...more on that later. We all went to Ben's house and partied there. Ben picked up two 30-cases of PBR and damn, PBR is now right up there with King Cobra. The night was going along at an even pace until Will showed up. Will walks in and brings the party with him! We were all on the front porch and im smoking a cigartte, eating a bagel, and watching people take hits from the 'ukelelee' and Mitch randomly falls backwards outta his chair all drunk and shit. Goddamn, that bagel ERUPTED ALL OVER the place, we all laughed so hard that I thought i had shit myself. oh man, Mitch is a straight-up awesome kid. I walked back to Carface's a couple of hours later and crashed.

Friday- We all woke up at around 2 o'clock and headed over to subway. mmmm. mmmm. Went to the library and just sat around outside shooting the shit, singing the occasional CCR tune. oh yeah, i forgot to mention that the weather this whole weekend was beautiful. Nice and hot, summertime in acomming. Just hanging out in the shade of the library made me really miss NIU. Watching all the intresting people walk by, sitting in the shade, relaxing...I dunno, I just wanted it all back.
Walked around some more, layed in the grass and looked into the deep blue sky, talked about lots of stuff. Carface got ahold of some shrooms. Carface, Will, and Mike ended up shrooming later that night. hehehe.. Me and Atom just watched and drank a few beers..Good times! heh, I spent a large portion of the night on the phone with Ms. Britt. Damn, shes a good girl. Anyways I fell asleep watching Conan. For some really odd reason, I had a bunch of nightmares that night, which is REALLY wierd cos i usually dont dream, much less have nightmares. Carlene would nudge me awake for snoring every once and awhile and i'd wake up all scared..."EHHHSASD!! WHATS HAPPENING, EHHhh, UHHN?! ehhh...." Carface would just rub my back and put me back to sleep. I HEART CARLENE!

Saturday- Woke up, went to subway and we ALL went back to sleep to about 4 or 5...Group Nap! yay! At this point, im starting to feel really stressed about spending so much money over the weekend on gas and food...oh well, VERY MUCH worth it. I drove home feeling hungover which was odd cos I didnt drink to drunkeness the night before, I only had about 4 beers over a 6 hour time span. hmmm?
Anyways, got home and waited for Ms. Britt to call and she did. I eagarly went on over to see her and I immediately knew something was up. We go down stairs and theres a Hampster cage with HAMTARO sitting it in saying "Hamtaro wants to know if Ethan darling will go to prom with Britt?" I was COMPLETELY surprised...I didnt know what to say.. When I read it, i immediately thought to myself "HELL YEAH ILL GO WITH BRITT!!!" but I was just soo flattered (and still am) that she would ask me. ::blushes:: Kristy and Britt had gone out and bought a real hamster but it escaped...but it didnt matter, hamster or no hamster, I think thats been one of the most flattering and thoughtful things that anyone has ever done for me. I still think it was pretty fucking cool. Needless to say, I said yes and now me and Britt have a big weekend of tuxedo shopping ahead of us!!! I had a fucking BADASS weekend, but I think Britt made my weekend when she asked me to goto her prom. eeeee! I'm sooooooo looking forward to it all, bomb diggity? I think so.

A rockin ending to a rockin weekend

2004-04-18T06:57:40Z

I had THE BEST weekend of all time!
i will expand on all of this tommorow, im tired and havfta work tommorow SECREST OUT!

She made my day today.

carface is yelling at me right now. "im mad at you"

2004-04-16T19:31:53Z

now carface is pouting at me cos "i wanna go outside and youre inside, and i wanna go outside with you."

"ok go on"
"heh"
"meh"
::rasberries::
"ethan c'mon....no ssffsdsfs"

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING"
"WHATS THAT? WHAT"
"stop it"
"heh"
"whats that? is that a picture of me"
"is it?"
"fsdfs"
"dont type that just answer me!"
"get outta here!"

"eww"

ok sorry. its a nice day and im gonna go drink beer by the lake. "with carface"

i love carface <3

mmhmm

2004-04-15T05:31:58Z

Life Is Grand!

i got a promotion at work, im the safety officer of my building, which means i gotta do inspections and make sure every thing is us to OSHA code and whatnot. ooooo fancy! responsibility! oooo! i worked hard as fuck this week and i can feel it...in my sore back. yeah good stuff. im picking up Britt tommorow for lunch, dont know where we are gonna go but i can already tell you its gonna be the muhfuckin bomb diggity. Stay tuned for some pictures.

Me and La Bomba are off to DeKalb tommorow to have a more-or-less family reunion, and guess what? WE'RE GONNA PARTY HARD like that one song says. MWAHAHA! The Holy Thunder Force Drunken Air Guitar Team, or THTFDAGT as I refer to it as will be rockin the Cobra in full effect this time tommorow.

Switching gears, everything seems to be looking good for me nowadays, im maintaining a positive attitude and its working. I can honestly say that my life is awesome. Believe it. ::satisfation:: cutting it short tonight cos im tired and i have a big day of badassness tommorow! Life gets no better.

-ethan

a few new ones

2004-04-13T06:42:15Z

a few new pictures of me and company.

mmm. 2002

Mini-me, me, Lunchbox. 2002

me and a bunch of the kids. 2002

all of us. 2002

i HAD more pictures but i fucked up the files.
more coming soon.

last night

2004-04-12T02:19:24Z

pogo7stomp7mafia: that song has a really damn good breakdown in it
open eyedtears: well i can not wait to hear it.
pogo7stomp7mafia: i know, i can tell
pogo7stomp7mafia: i can read your thoughts
open eyedtears: whoa that would be scary... ... but if anyone could do it .. it would be you
pogo7stomp7mafia: yes yes YES, this is true
pogo7stomp7mafia: you are thinking...
pogo7stomp7mafia: your feet are cold
pogo7stomp7mafia: yes yes?
open eyedtears: holy shit!!
open eyedtears: did i say that to you earlier?!?!
pogo7stomp7mafia: nope
open eyedtears: because i totally typed it out but i dont' remember sending it
pogo7stomp7mafia: hehe
open eyedtears: did i send it?!
pogo7stomp7mafia: nope
pogo7stomp7mafia: and also
pogo7stomp7mafia: this is just coming in
pogo7stomp7mafia: ...kimmy is stoned?
pogo7stomp7mafia: yes yes?
open eyedtears: hahaha
open eyedtears: i totally believe you have powers !!!!
pogo7stomp7mafia: was i right?
open eyedtears: my goodness yes!!! you must be magic
open eyedtears: how the crap did you know!!!
pogo7stomp7mafia: trade secret

choking on a hairpin

2004-04-10T09:55:50Z

I'm really soo damn tired and I dont feel like posting but I know i'll be lazy and busy tommorow so what the hell...

I had a rockin' day today fo sho. Changed La Bomba v3.0's oil today, and she purrrred with satisfaction. I "broke" into my parents house to look for some pictures and things and I am surprised to see that my parents bought a new dog. Odd to say the least. and what was even more bizarre was that when I got into the house the first thing that I noticed was that christina agulara was playing on the stereo. yeah, my parents are creeps.

After of which, I met up with my little sister, Kristy and my newest friend Britt. Went to the mall to see Kristy's NEWEST love interest and as we walk into hot topic (yeah, someone KICK me for that one) Tony Bohn greets me outta nowhere! Ok, a little background on Mr. Bohn, over the summer, my poor friend Jo-Jo died asphyxiating on his vomit (poor kid was 24)and we had a funeral service for him (...sigh...) and I met Tony there. He gave me a ride home to the half-way house and gave me a tape of Iggy Pop, which was pretty damn cool of him I must say. Anyways that was the last time I got to chill him which sucks cos Tony is a pretty good kid, one of those people you feel comfortable with right off the bat. So yeah, he works at hot topic and we kinda got caught up with this and that. It was good to see him.

-ok ...so BACK onto topic-

Talked to Tony, and left shortly afterwards to bumble about in the mall, catching up on each others lives and whatnot. Headed up to the bk in McHenry to meet up with CONOR!, which was pretty damn rock cos I haven't seen that kid in some time either. Saw him, Rob, and Nicholtard and pretty much just chilled all night together in various fast food eateries around McHenry. The WSO had its weekly board meeting in Bocci's and yeah, you know how we do... Tonight was just full of 'reunions' which is ALWAYS goodtimes. Drove back and had a good serious conversation with Kristy about life and all that. Went to dunkin donuts, got coffee, dropped everyone off and me and La Bomba putt'd back to our hole.

So, in a nutshell, tonight was VERY rockin'. yes YES!
Ethan=yawn. Goodnight.

-Ethan